it sound like you need to shelve the cap and get a real trainer and some instruction.

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most larger clubs have student trainers for new guys to try their hand at flying. Think your going to learn to fly from a simulator is just a hopeful delusion, and I'm an avid gamer and sim nut. It helps allot and reinforces what you'll learn from an instructor.

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but as I said don't run out and buy it, go find a club, even if it's over an hour drive, talk to them and most likely they or someone in the club will set you up on a trainer box and teach you to fly for free, they will even help set your plane up and test it for you,