Anxiety is the cause. Number one rule when getting into RC models is to stay away from powered aircraft. Start with a three channel foam glider. Have another launch it off a high start or winch. You will not be afraid of crashing and quickly learn left and right and up an down. Use this approach and you will stay in the hobby. I have seen to many new commers crash and never come back. Buddy boxes and simulators are a waste of time. Get into silent flight and transition into powered flight from there.