Well it WAS your fault but we all crash them.  I've probably set the RCU Guiness Book of Crash Records.  Best advice they gave me was buy cheap planes, don't name them, don't paint them up pretty, don't fall in love with them.  Go fly, crash it, go fly, crash it.  I've given up lots of times but good people here have cheered me on, offered lessons, points and support.  All reasons I have gone out and bought another plane and gotten better over time.  Not that I'm good but I'm still hanging around despite some moderator that hates me.  Get a cheap "experienced" plane, fly it with some instruction, maybe smack it into firewood and you'll get good enough in time.  Keep on the simulator and no it's NOT the real thing but it will help with dexterity training and orientation, all of which come into play in keeping them in the same number of pieces you brought them to the field in.