absolutely, myself included NO ONE wants to see this happen... and guess what?
it would have happened even if you were a club member, at an approved field, etc.
the occasional crash is part of the learning process.

THAT being said, OH MAN that is one re-kitted airplane there... I for one applaud your candor, your humorous attitude, and your stick-tuitiveness (even if that's not really a word ;D)

keep your head up, find another airplane and press on!
(make sure to range check all radio gear, check for obvious damage and replace or repair where required.)
Eddie C has you pointed in the right direction

one GREAT thing about Model Aviation... you can turn an airplane into a pile of sawdust and tiny bits..... then go home and have a beer.

try THAT in a full scale (don't really )