Paul,
I really enjoy your friendship and kind words. I really didn't want anything to hurt what I really had be enjoying. The lost of the plane and quick kneejerk reaction really is not what I am all about. I like being around people like you the others there and I felt really bad about the impression from the few minutes of anger from the events of the loss was not what I wanted to be a lingering impression for people to come away from that event. I felt I owed it to you guys and that is why I asked Lewis to let me speak.
Yes it hurts to loose the jet but loosing my friends is far worse. Also being recognized by my peers was awesome and motivation do it again.