Brian, Please takes this in the light that I am writing it. Turbine powered airplanes might not be right for you at this time. While all of us get that pre first flight gitters, you should not be having these kinds of worries and fears every time you fly your jet. Personal confidence as well as pilot skills are nessacary for those fears to go away. Since you and I have never met I don't know of your skills or flying history, only you do and the guys who signed you off to have the waiver. One of the things I look for when we are training a pilot for turbine flying is the abilitiy to keep calm when things go wrong; you are right your luck will run out one day like it will for all of us. If the possibility of loss of your model is always in your mind you will not enjoy this wonderful hobby no matter what you are flying. I take this from a old BVM Ad for the F-4 before turbines existed " If the thought of your $10,000 model plane rolling down the runway about to take off with the possibilty of not coming back is in the back of your mind, this plane is not for you. Do not read further". I comend you for putting this out for us to see. You got yourself in trouble, but also got it out and back. So that should not only give you a scare but also build your confidence that you can see a possible crash and do the right thing to save the plane. You at least did not panic and stand there and watch it go in. Hopefully for you the fears will subside and you will enjoy this wonderful aspect of the hobby.