You're not stupid just over enthusiastic. The thing that brings this on is one of my cheif objections to model magazines. They show all these perfect airplanes and explain how the Tournament of Champions pilots or Top Gun types do it without mentioning that these are people who have been at it a long time and are really professionals. Most are spending more time modeling and flying than ordinary people do at making a living. They should emphasize that everyone should start, not only with a trainer type, but most importantly an instructor. Model Airplane News and AMA's Model Aviation are starting on the right tack, finally. If you are lucky enough to have a hobby shop near ask where the nearest flying field is and check with the pilots there. They will probably welcome you with open arms and recommend a trainer type that won't cost an arm and a leg as well as pointing out an instructor. If the hobby shop owner sold you the high end model, and didn't try to find out if you could fly the thing, avoid him like the plague and go to on line shopping. The local RC pilots will give you the straight scoop. Just keep the model you have and you will be flying it soon enough.