learning without an instructor
I learned to fly on my own with no one around. After busting up two nice trainers, I realized I needed help or a plane that could stand hitting the ground. So I got a Sturdy Birdy. I crashed that thing about 30 times but was able to get back in the air right away every time. I definitely learned the hard way. What everyone is telling you is true, especially "MikeL".
Good Luck