Sometimes "complaining" about these things is a subconscious way to ask for more stuff . You can only get so much pitty before people get sick of it.

So bottom line: suck it up! if you don't have enough money then DON'T CRASH! Your antics is probably what got the club members sick of you anyway. How would you feel if someone crash the plane you give to them in front of you? If that were me, that'd be the last time I'd give that person anything again. You may not have their respect because you have not earned it.

Harsh words, but that's the truth