How can you possibly fly around and land if you cant takeoff from the pilots stations. Do you just fly race track pattern, and turn your body to face which way the plane is going? If you can fly around and land without orientating yourself to the plane's direction, you can takeoff that way too. I dont buy it.

It sounds to me like you either have some more training to do, or just need to get over that mental "block".

I normally dont recommend a simulator for anything but goofing off and choreography, but perhaps a sim would help you get over that hurdle.

I can tell you this. If you continue to stand at the end of a active runway...you WILL get hit. Its inevitable. Its a bad practice, and dangerous. It would be better for you to take off across the runway then to stand at the end of it.

Best Wishes, and good luck. You can do it if you practice.