Well, here's my story...

I have been into R/C planes for about a year and a half and just had my second crash. The first crash was my four star 60. Not sure exactly what happend, but i got the plane repaired and it flies as good as ever.

The day that I crashed the 4* was the day that i maidened my Somethin' Extra that I built from a kit. I was nervous as heck to maiden the SSE as the 4* crashed on the first circuit of flying that day, but it went off without a hitch.

Yesterday, i took out my 4* and my new GP Cessna that had only 2 flights on it. I took out the 4*, it flew great as usual. Then i took out the Cessna...the take off was great, the plane was flying great for about 5 minutes when it happened...

I was doing a fairly low speed (about 1/2 throttle), low altitude pass when out of nowhere the plane rolled violently onto its back. I was flying pretty much hands off as i was merely making a pass over the runway. The plane rolled over faster than i could ever imagine (I'll write it off as some sort of radio interference, but the vertical stab could also have broken in flight - again I have no idea why it happened). I recovered the roll as the plane went into a dive and just didn't have enough altitude to pull out of the dive. The plane went in at about 30 deg. and is pretty much totaled.

To get to my point...I think I put too much emotion into this hobby and into my planes, too much to the point where flying makes me nervous cuz I don't know what will happen next. I'm afraid to fly the SSE because of all the work I put into it as it was a kit. I know the plane flies great, but I am afraid to lose it. I was devistated to see the Cessna go, I know it was an ARF, but it took quite a while to build, what makes it even worse was that the crash had nothing to do with my piloting.

Not to mention the money factor. Ya, the Cessna was "only" $200, but to me that seems like a ton of money only to get 2 1/2 flights out of. I don't understand how many people say..."oh well, I crashed another plane, just an excuse to get a new one"

Please explain to me how I should get over my intense emotion that comes with this hobby. I love flying, I love building planes, but sometimes my emotions get the best of me and sometimes I just won't go flying because of it!!! Does anybody else share the same feelings??