RE: Discouraged...
If you have more time then money go to the spadtothebone.com
web site and build a simple airplane and fly the heck out of it.
2 stroke motors are hard to kill and standard servos are cheap.
Use it as your everday beater plane and keep a nicer balsa plane
for the good days.
If you don't want to go this route then get a older used plane
that is built a little stronger then the new breed of super light
weight 3d planes.
The SSE is a good strong plane, I had one.
A nice trainer is also relaxing to fly so maybe get a alpha 40
or 60 and ajust relax and fly.