I think a big hug is exactly what you need! How far is Oregon, Illinois from London Mills, Illinois? If it is not to far maybe I can drop by and give you a big hug, and a "it will be allright" pat on the back. Then we will go fly at your local AMA Club, do some fun flying and tell each other good bs stories all day. After all, when you put everything else aside, it is all about flying, having a good time, and telling good bs stories.