I was in the same position as you many years ago--a new trainer I was sure I'd crash, and no clubs around. No sims in those days, either, and no Internet. So I put the trainer away for awhile and bought an RC glider. Nowadays you can get a good electric glider, but back then you powered a glider by stapping a motor mount to the wing and hanging a Cox .049 engine from it. It made an excellent trainer. Very slow and stable. The Parkzone Cub can't compare.

But you shouldn't have to go through that now. I not only had to learn to fly by myself, I had to learn everything, through trial and error (mostly error), from tuning an engine to handling a deadstick. I got very good at making repairs. Finding someone to help will save you tons of time, and likely some cash as well.