I can do it on my own, said a guy that came to our field and that was offered help to get started and was told to set up and he would be helped, he set up and took off knocking down a 3000 dollar airplane, he left giving the man a hundred dollar bill for his loss, you probably dont a great job for a beginner but ama and instructors are not putting you down only trying to guide you in the right direction, ama and instructors are your good friend that want to help you not put you down, keep flying it is a great hobby for everyone to enjoy but there is so much more to this hobby then the eye meets or a sim can teach, good luck to you and i hope that you do the right thing.