O.k. so I just had my $% birthday and although I am absolutley a young guy, this birthday seemed to hit me kinda hard. My knees dont feel that great, my back, well, I have a bad back, and I am very very young...although I feel old. I have grey hair in places frankly I do not want it. I have one too many and the next day I am worthless. My body is showing signs of it's age.
I was up late last night thinking of this post.....wondering what will anyone say about me when I am gone. What do I want them to say about me when I am gone.....
I guess things like"im beeter for having known him" or "he always did it his way I gotta respect that" or "he''ll be sorely missed things wont be the same". However these are all cliche. I think now that I have 30 years or so until I consider retiring, yes I am not that old, but I look around and think things were not like this in my day. MY Day. I guess I never thought I would have a "my day" thought,but I do. People were nicer when I was younger, more patient helpful,thoughtful, friendly. Not like today...except for R/Cers. Chances are things I do at our club will never grace the pages of MA or any othe rpublication. Any model I buiold will never make it on the cover or inside the magazine, unless I submit it in the reader's section. Actually in an odd way I am uncomfortable with any praise that I receive or am do. I think I would just rather everyone I help pay it forward. I would love for that to be my legacy. If I by chance did something to soemone that they appreciated I hope that in thanks to me they do something for someone else. Maybe this is weird I don't know. What I do know is that I am another year older, another year wiser, and I am starting to think NOW about all the changes I would like to make in myself and the community around me.