I know exactly how u feel. A few weeks back, I went to a field to see if I wanted to join. There was only one person, but he let me fly his trainer on a buddy box, since he was an instructor. It was awesome. First day I was looping and doing rolls. I went back yesterday and he was there again and remembered me. He let me fly again, and to my amazement, after a few times around, he told me to set up for a landing, but dont land, and the second time to set up and do it. I landed what seemed like perfect to me. I was so excited. (I still am too.)