I don't know if you have taken the time to get an instructor, but you need too.
Find a club in your area and ask for help, they will gladly give you a hand. You also need to join AMA, there is an insurance issue you need to be aware of.
If you can't take off by yourself you'll never land without trashing your plane.
Get an instructor to help you.
Here is the AMA web site.
http://modelaircraft.org/templates/ama/
Just my two cents worth.
AL