I feel you man. I have always been the same way and now I am really into learning 3D and as I have noone to teach me this stuff I have to learn it on my own. I have become a big fan of SPAD's for ths reason alone. They are not the prettiest planes but they are super durable and CHEAP!! I have a couple prettyplanes as well but I have more fun thrashing on my SPAD's. I am going to be building the SPA3DT pretty soon to really start learning some new maneuvers.