RE: Landing question
There is NOTHING wrong with exercising common sense and going around. It shows you are thinking and NOT letting your MACHO, or whatever, over-ride your common sense. If you are dead stick, you'll land, no choice but I find actual dead-sticks easier than practice landings sometimes. Less decisions to make in some ways and once you make them, no time for second guessing.
Keep at it the way you are IMO.
The big Alpha really bounces in the wind so get used to it. And practice you approaches and landings more. You'll be fine.