I've been fortunate enough to only have a couple of really decent crashes in many hundreds of flights over the last few years. I have been able to put them behind me very quickly so long as I reflect on why the crash handed and I learn from my mistake. A pilot who never crashes isn't trying to learn anything new.
Ditto I have wrecked my trainer again and again and if I didn’t know why I would be helpless. Michael you will learn and we are all sad to hear. I still haven’t totaled mine but I've been flying for a couple of months but I have seen lots of planes go done and I normally see them back in a week. You will ether get yours fixed or find something you enjoy and fun is what this hobby is about. Crashes are just a side effect.