Sorry for your loss.....but, if you don't want to crash airplanes maybe you had better take up bass fishing.
After a crash I leave the still repairable (sometimes) wreckage someplace where I don't have to look at it for awhile....then months later either rebuild it or trash it....fly something else in my fleet.
My goodness, these are ARF's....try losing a real scratch built plane that took a long time to build??