In our club. We have no instructors. I'd go out to the field and see if anyone was there. If someone was there; I'd asked if they would help me. If it was the training cord or just pass the tx. I finally soled( cause the training cord would fit in the other tx ) I still dont like flying by myself when no one is around. I'm afraid of me getting bit by the prop and no one can help) Just don't give up; I know you want to fly; trust me. You could loose you plane if you choose to fly. Here is an idea just take you plane and with the wings off taxi around the yard; maybe try to give it full throttle and see if you can keep it striaght. Thats what I do; either if I'm bored or doing an engine test. Good Luck