You remind me of me so much its not funny. I am a 30 year avionics tech and I spent 4 years at Dover on C5's also. And....I love to build alot more than flying jus cause I am scared of crashing. The weather here in N. Alabama was perfect this last week so I has no excuses. I went out and flew everyday. My knees knocked around pretty much early in the week but by yesterday I was doing OK I will go out again tomorrow until kickoff at 1430. Take off is the hairiest part for me also. But touch and go's are fun.
I love to build. Fabric and paint is my prefered covering. Someday flying may be just as fun. I think when the stress of a possible crash goes away then it will just as rewarding as the build. Hang in there bro. We will get there soonenough.