Lots of people go through this, I pretty much taught myself to fly with a slow stick at the schoolyard, it help a LOT with thumb finger orientation..couldnt afford a sim 10 years ago and never got FMS to work with the disc and my radio...so,,I went through several planes myself..a good one thats smaller to learn on is the Ace whizard with an .049, maybe a .07 thunder tiger, just run it out of fuel (small tank) and deadstick it in,,set the prop so that when its on compression it is horizontal...Rog