Hi Boudacia,

It took me several months to get disconnected from the buddy box, although I had a great instructor.
I was 47.

The fun is in flying, and you are flying.
The buddy box is just insurance for your investment, and it should not be reason for embarrasement.

Just relax and learn at your pace.
Focus on how the wing of your model plays with the air; that is what flies, the rest just follows it.
Try to enjoy your practices; if you are happy, you learn faster.

This reading may help with those landings:

http://masportaviator.com/2004/01/17...ng-techniques/

Best,