I know how you feel, Chris. I lost my pattern plane on it's 5th flight last year. Fortunately for me is wasn't as expensive as yours. It was just a Wind 110 but it was still an expensive 5 flights and it was my most expensive crash to date. I ended up being able to salvage everything by the airframe and so I just bought another one. I hope you can find a way to get another pattern plane in the air too.

Mike