Just to offer my solution... The end to your frustration is going to begin as soon as you hookup with a club and get a solid electric or glow trainer.. You dont necessarily need to go glow but its going to find a truly airworthy electric that is simple and complete is going to be tough. If you can save up $500 and want a no frills straight to the point setup that you can learn to fly with the Nexstar or something like it is going to be you r best bet. Its a COMPLETE setup that will have you in the air in a matter of hours... all you will need is to find a club or at least a pilot that can help you out. Really a buddy box is and a "buddy" to teach you to fly will be instant satisfaction I promise.

You can learn on your own but its going to be a painful process until you really learn to fly. Flying is easy... ONCE you learn how to do it. Until you get your hand eye coordination going its going to be tough. The beauty of a buud box is that it allows you to work through your mistakes without the pain and disapointment of countless crashes and repairs that destroy your confidence drain your $$$$. Success breeds confidence, confidence breeds success... If the successes are few and far between its going to take forever to build your confidence and get to a place where crashing is only a memory.

End the pain now, get hooked up with someone who has a buddy box.

Some clubs even have a club trainer plane or the thrainer will teach you with HIS trainer... cant hurt to ask... Im not sure how old you are but most clubs are very eager to help kids out,,, and really they do the same for everyone!