Newb,
Great. I understood when you said you didn't want to rebuild, we all go through that same feeling when we crash. But after "cooling down" a few days later I'll start putting it back together. That's why I pushed you when I did. I knew you'd be fine once you started getting it back together.

I'll tell you a little secret. I learned to fly on a Tower Trainer, and I still have it but it's really starting to feel it's age (it's got well over 400 flights on it, and has been recovered twice). I recently bought out somebody who was getting out of the hobby and one of the kits he had was a new tower trainer kit. I'm planning on building that later on this summer so I can retire my first trainer. I want to keep my first trainer for sentimental value. My dad originally bought it and was going to learn to fly on it. He passed away before he could try. I brought it home and learned to fly (both for myself and for my dad's memory) and will keep it as a nice reminder of my dad.