You are a total and complete failure as a husband and father if you do NOT have enough confidence in how you were supposed to raise them.
You blew it completly.
You have totaly destroyed any long lasting confidence they can have for you.
you also do not know a thing about me and yet you call me a drug user.
You have had a painfull relationship with someone on drugs. It has removed all the joy that should be between you and your family.
I will not hurt you more than you have been.