F-15 Fan,

Sorry for your loss. Have you had any training with an instructor? If not, I can understand why you feel the hobby is no fun. It is expensive, a lot more expensive if you don't have any instruction, training, etc. because you will crash more often then if you did have training. Plus, a club and instructor will teach you more than just how to fly. They teach safety, how to tune engines, all about radios, servos, etc.
To find a local club go to the [link=http://www.modelaircraft.org/clubsearch.aspx]AMA Club Search[/link] here: http://www.modelaircraft.org/clubsearch.aspx

Good luck with your Pulse maiden next weekend.