Kennel,  I started RC flying around 1988.  I flew maybe 3 dozen flights over a couple of years.  I was in Dallas so weather was a factor that grounded me frequently.  I was an avionics tech with Braniff also so work also got in the way alot.  I got a new job as a maint rep for UPS in 1990.  I was transferred to San Antonio so with my new responsibilities, ( I travelled ALOT) there was no time for RC.  I semi retired back in 2000.  Bought a GP PT60 and started flying again.  But I only flew around a dozen flights before I started working heavies again and travelling again.  I fully retired last March so I am D checking my trainer.  I shoud be back in the air in around 30 days.  So this all boils down to I have felt like a total beginner 3 times now.  The first time I started in Dallas I had a friend take off and hand my the transmitter at altitude.  A quick transfer when I would get into trouble.  The second time I started flew entirely on my own.  I was just as nervous that time as it had been over 1o years since I flew.  And I had never gotten all that good the first time.    I didnt crash but I did have some hard landings.  Its a grass strip with tall grass everywhere so I had a soft landing strip.  After I re-cover my PT60 and get the D check complete I am sure I will be just as nervous when I go out to fly this time as I was back in '88.  Even tho this is a small club there are plenty of guys who would be glad to help.  If someone has a transmitter that is compatinbe with my Tower radio and they want to buddy box me I will jump on that.  But if noone is there when I go to fly I am just gonna take off.  I never was much of a rudder man.  I am all about Ailerons and throttle.  I have a thread going in Kit Building (Covering and Paint).  I will be posting pics there.  Wish me luck brother.  I know what you are going through.  Been there 3 times now!!!  I'll Be watching this thread, waiting to see how it goes for you and wishing you rock your world.  Go for it.   
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