"I have never crashed a jet, but have come very close a bunch of times."
Brian,
Once you cross that threshold, (eventually you will, we all have,) you'll find out whether flying these expensive toys is really for you or not. You'll either be so devastated you'll never want to risk experiencing it again, or you'll miss it so much you'll be on the phone ordering something new, sooner than you think. Until that moment, enjoy the ride!
David S